Charlotte’s Arrival: Part 2
Sorry to leave you hanging…I intended to write the second half much quicker, but you know how that goes with a newborn in residence
. Where were we…
Tuesday, April 24th
Mid-afternoon
I was resting comfortably in my room (which was about the size of a 3rd class cabin on the Titanic, while my labor and delivery room had been large enough to accommodate several dozen people. Not sure the logic there…I’d rather have my visitors come to the room after delivery rather than during labor, but maybe that’s just me.) A woman came in and announced she was Charlotte’s nurse. I perked up, thinking I was finally going to be allowed to see and hold my daughter. No dice. Instead, she tells me (in the nicest way possible) that Charlotte is having some breathing problems, so they are keeping her on oxygen for now. Alarm bells start ringing, but she assures me that this is fairly common in babies who went into distress during labor. She probably breathed in some meconium (her poop) during delivery, which is very sticky and can gunk up new lungs, making them work harder to bring in oxygen. Her pediatrician was watching her closely, and as soon as her breathing improved they would bring her in for me to see her.
Evening
I spent the afternoon visiting with family members who gave me updates on what they could see through the nursery window, and trying not to be too impatient to hold my baby. I also got a few updates from Charlotte’s nurse, who told me that although she had made some improvement initially, she’d relapsed and was requiring more oxygen. Finally the pediatrician came in. He told us that Charlotte was not making the improvement that he’d expected. He’d ordered blood tests done for infection and started her on some antibiotics just in case, but he really felt like her problems needed to be addressed by a more highly-specialized doctor. He had recommended that she be transported to the NICU at Willow Creek Women’s Hospital. My world shattered. My entire family (both Chris and my sides) were packed like sardines into the room, but I ordered everyone out except my husband. It was one of the darkest moments of my life. I knew a baby who needed to be put into intensive care was a very sick baby indeed. Worst of all, instead of getting to see my little girl, I was being separated from her. I was stuck in a hospital bed in Bentonville, while she would be moved to Fayetteville. I didn’t know how long a c-section recovery was, but I’d heard they usually kept you 2-3 days. The pain I felt at the thought of not being by her side…well, let’s just say I have an idea of what hell might be like. After I’d cried a few buckets of tears (and then some) I pulled myself together enough to let my parents come back in. They gave me a sliver of hope, by suggesting that I ask to be transferred to Willow Creek too. Then at least I’d be in the same location. When I eagerly asked the nurse about the possibility, she shook her head. My doctor didn’t have admitting privileges there, and it was unlikely another doctor would take me on as a transfer. The only thing I could do was ask to be discharged as soon as possible. Fine, I said. I’ll do that. What do I have to do to get out of here?
Late evening
Although my doctor was already off duty, my nurse contacted the doctor on-call who gave the go-ahead for me to be discharged. I was given a couple tasks to complete before they let me go, however. I had to be able to get out of the bed and walk around, and I had to use the bathroom. Getting out of bed wasn’t too hard (painful, but they had loaded me up with some good pain meds, so I managed), but the potty thing took a couple tries (TMI I know, but obviously the epidural numbs all the muscles down there too, and takes longer to wear off than say my legs). I finally managed to squeeze out about a teaspoon of pee, which apparently was enough to let me go home. By now it was after eleven, and despite my determination to see my baby (they had wheeled her into the my room in her transport unit before she left, which looked like some sort of space-age containment unit, but all I could see of her was a blurry outline through the plastic side) I realized that it was a bit beyond me to do much of anything but make it home and crawl into my own bed.
Wednesday, April 25th
morning
Thanks to the good narcotics that my wonderful husband procured for me at the 24 hour pharmacy, I was able to get out of bed. I even made it into the shower, which felt amazing after the past two days. I almost felt human again. Just as we were getting ready to leave, I got a call from the NICU. The doctor told me that Charlotte had been diagnosed with an infection, and that they needed to do a spinal tap to make sure the infection hadn’t turned into meningitis, which would travel up into her brain. Numbly I gave my consent to the procedure, as the doctor went on to tell me that Charlotte was still receiving oxygen for her breathing problems, and that they had detected a slight heart murmur. Was there no end to my baby’s troubles? I’d had such a relatively easy, normal pregnancy, that I was totally unprepared for any kind of complications. We quickly finished our preparations, and Chris and I headed off to see her before they started the procedure.
Late morning
We made it before they began the spinal tap. After a 3 minute scrub-in that would become a very familiar routine throughout the next few days, we were finally admitted in to see her. Although it was awful to see her surrounded by wires and tubes that poked out from her body in all directions, my baby was still the most beautiful sight I’ve ever seen. My soul gave a sigh of relief. Up to that point I had felt such an emptiness…I knew in my head that I’d grown a baby inside me, but my heart refused to believe it until I could finally see her with my own eyes. She was so beautiful and perfect. Now if only she would get well.
Afternoon
We ran into her neonatalogist after eating lunch, who gave us a quick summary of her prognosis. He shook his head in amazement, and said that sometimes it seemed like Someone was looking out for certain babies, and that was definitely Charlotte’s case. We simply nodded, thinking of all the prayers that were flowing for our baby girl and had been since before she was born. Of course Someone was looking out for her! Jesus was holding her tightly in His arms, though we couldn’t yet. The doctor said that she had the Strep B infection (not to be confused with Strep throat…Strep B is a serious blood infection. I’d been tested for the bacteria at one of my prenatal visits, but had tested negative. Apparently the bacteria can come and go). The pediatrician had saved her life by testing her for infection almost immediately, and putting her on antibiotics so quickly, even though they had no idea if infection was really the problem. The neonatalogist went on to say that if Charlotte had not had all the other complications with her breathing and had not been checked out so quickly, they would most likely not have caught the infection in time. It was a terrifying thought, yet it made us so thankful to God that he had used all the circumstances and caregivers to save our baby’s life. I think the hardest lesson a parent learns is how to let go of their children. I didn’t know I would have to start learning that lesson so soon, but I know that I have to release her into God’s hands. That’s where she belongs.
The next 10 days were filled with small victories. Being the feisty girl that she is, Charlotte pulled her oxygen cannula out after only a few days, and did so well without it they decided she didn’t need it. When the lines in her belly button came out we finally got to hold her, which was still the magical and incredible experience we’d been told about, amplified perhaps by our long wait. After several days of pumping in order to bring my milk in. they decided she was well enough to start eating, and I was able to nurse. After a few false starts Charlotte caught on, and got better at eating every day. Although we had been told she probably wouldn’t be discharged until Sunday May 6th, they took her PICC line out Friday the 4th, and she came home that night!
Life with Charlotte has been every bit of the adjustment everyone told us about. She’s had her ups and downs, but the highs so outweigh the lows. I can (and have) spend hours holding her in my arms as she sleeps (which may explain the delay in finishing this post). I’m so grateful and humbled by this whole experience…and can only hope and pray that her dramatic entrance isn’t setting the stage for Charlotte to develop into a total drama queen.
Charlotte’s arrival: A play-by-play
I will not be offended if no one chooses to read this post. I know many people are uncomfortable with knowing the details of labor and delivery, and I certainly have been told more than my fair share of graphic birth accounts, embellished with far more detail than I ever wanted. However, I know some of my fellow moms and other friends might be interested to know how it all went down. My main purpose is to get it all recorded before I forget how it happened, since I’ve been told all about “labor amnesia,” which helps ensure that women do actually go on to have more than one child. As with most birth stories, Charlotte’s is very different from what I imagined. I thought I’d have a normal labor, aided by copious amounts of pain medication, and that my baby girl would arrive the natural way. Funny how God had different plans.
Monday, April 23rd
6:30am – I wake to a strange feeling that I am much wetter than could be explained by my normal night sweats (a common side-effect of pregnancy, or so I’ve been told). I mumble something about my water breaking to my husband as I lever myself out of bed and into the bathroom. By the time I get out Chris has jumped into some clothes and loaded all the bags into the car (apparently the phrase “water breaking” has an instantaneous effect on an expectant father, causing his adrenaline to skyrocket). I’m still not sure my water has actually broken, but I call the hospital and they tell us to come in. I convince Chris that I’m not about to drop down and give birth, and he lets me eat a bowl of cereal and take a shower before we leave.
8:30 am – I’m admitted to a labor and delivery room, and my nurse checks to see if my water has in fact broken. She’s “pretty sure” it has (not exactly the reassuring affirmation I was looking for) and hooks me up to a monitor. Turns out those painful abdominal cramps I’d been experiencing off and on all night are actual contractions and not false labor like I’d assumed. She checks me, but I’m only dilated to about 1.5, not much more than I had been at my last appointment 5 days earlier. We call our parents and let them know, but tell them not to rush since I’m still just in early labor. My family says they will be on their way about noon.
10:30am – After conferring with my doctor, my nurse inserts a gel inside my cervix to help it dilate and efface quicker (the term I believe is “ripen,” which is rather ridiculous, because at 5 days past my due date I feel like an over-ripe watermelon about to explode). It’s the first step in inducing labor, which we were supposed to do the next day anyway, so I still feel like things are progressing on schedule.
2:00pm – My parents arrive. I’ve just requested my first dose of pain meds (a shot of Fentinal through my IV), since watching Ratatouille is no longer enough of a distraction from the worst cramping I’ve every experienced (if this is “early labor” I’m terrified to know what “active labor feels like.) I ask about an epidural, but the nurse says no dice until I’m further along. Drat. Unfortunately this means I am not able to eat any lunch. I do receive a Popsicle, which does very little to relieve the growling in my stomach.
4:00pm – I’m still not dilated much, only about a 3. I’ve found the meds don’t do much to take away the pain, but they do relax me enough to help me doze in-between contractions.
8:00pm – Still not making much progress. My dear friend Joy arrives. She’s a welcomed distraction, as she sits and regales me with her birth stories, which encourages my mom to do the same. Everyone watches the monitor eagerly, where my contractions continue to display. They are very consistent, but not strong enough yet to really be of much help to my cervix.
10:30pm – The nurse removes the gel, since it’s been the prerequisite 12 hours, and checks me again (this is probably TMI, but if you’ve read this far than I guess you won’t mind) The checks are getting more and more painful, instead of less, since the gel has made me extremely tender down there. I’m barely a 4, maybe. My doctor decides to give me some more time to see if I move into active labor on my own before starting the pitocin. Joy leaves, but promises to return the next day to hold baby Charlotte. I hope she’s not being overly optimistic, since at this point I’m thinking my labor will never end (or even really begin).
4:30am – After a very restless night, in which I find the pain of “early labor” can still become unbearable, I’m still stuck at a 4. My doc finally oks the pitocin, and the nurse says I can get that epidural! I’ve never been so excited to receive a shot in my life! The anesthesiologist is fabulous…true to his word, the only pain I feel is the “pinch and burn” of the numbing medication. They insert the epidural line and tape it to my back, and within minutes I start to feel the sweet relief of numbness as it creeps over my lower extremities. At first I’m worried that it wasn’t effective, since I’m only feeling numb on my right side, but the nurse explains that it works by gravity, and after they turn me onto my left side my pain just eases away, like magic. I feel a strong urge to give the anesthesiologist a hug and a kiss when he returns to check on me, but fortunately I’m unable to get up. The nurse inserts a catheter a little sooner than I would have preferred, since the numbness had not completely taken effect.
8:30am – My doctor arrives and checks me. I am almost giddy with the fact that it no longer hurts! I begin to think that I will survive this after all. Unfortunately, doc seems to think that I’m still not even a 4. She has them up the pitocin.
9:00-10:30am – The nurse continues to up my pitocin periodically, and we watch with interest as my contractions get stronger and closer together (a very strange experience, since I am really feeling no pain and would have no idea I was having any contractions at all if not for the monitor). She is so sweet and encouraging, assuring me that we will have this baby before her shift changes (she is the third nurse I’ve had). At one point she tells me that she’s sure I’m making progress (at this point I’m doubtful that my cervix is capable of expanding past a 4) and jokes that the next time she checks me I’ll probably be at an 8.
11:00am – She checks…I’m at a 9! This clearly surprises all of us, but before we can celebrate the baby’s heart-rate starts falling. My nurse hits the emergency button, and suddenly my bed is surrounded by at least 12 nurses. They shove an oxygen mask over my face, and move me onto one side, then the other, then tell me I need to roll over and get on my hands and knees. Since the epidural numbed my legs to the point where I really couldn’t feel them at all, this seemed impossible. However, you can do the impossible for your baby, as I discovered. I muscle my dead legs into position in about 30 seconds, tears flowing as fast as my prayers as I listen to the beep of Charlotte’s heart-rate get slower and slower. At one point it stopped all together, but the nurse said the monitor had just been dislodged at they had to relocate it. My doctor is now in the room, and as the baby’s heart-rate speeds up she tells me I need to start pushing. The nurses help me into position, and I push for all I’m worth. I don’t know if I’m doing it right, but everyone tells me I’m doing great so I have no choice but to believe them. During my rest period I look around for my husband. He’s clutching my mom’s hand and they’re both watching me with panic in their eyes. I tell Chris I need him, and he’s at my side and holding my hand as I push through a couple more contractions. Finally my doctor checks me again, then says the words I know are coming. The baby is too distressed to make it through much more labor, and although I’m pushing well, it may take me another hour or so to actually deliver. She doesn’t think Charlotte can last that long. I need a c-section.
11:15-11:23am – They prep me for surgery, then wheel me away into a brightly lit room full of scary equipment. I’m so thankful when Chris comes in and holds my hand as they stretch out my arms on either side of the operating table. I’m also thankful for my epidural, which allows me to stay awake through the procedure, until it hits me that I will be awake for the whole procedure. Worse, though the epidural removes pain, I can still feel movement and pressure. I tell myself it doesn’t matter, then squeeze my husband’s hand for all I’m worth as they begin.
11:27am – “You were expecting a girl, right?” the anesthesiologist asks us as the doctor holds up our sweet baby over the sheet. Chris and I look at each other and cry as they move Charlotte onto the warmer and start to clean her up. I can feel tugging and pressure on my belly, so I know they are probably removing the placenta and getting ready to close me up. We don’t hear the lusty cries of our baby, but we can hear her making sounds.
11:30-12:30pm – They finally finished closing me up (Chris followed Charlotte to the nursery, while I lay on the table, feeling my stomach being stretched, pulled, and stitched back together.) They removed the epidural, but gave me a shot of something else, which had me feeling quite calm for my stay in recovery.
12:35pm – They wheel me to my new room, stopping by the nursery on the way where I catch a glimpse of my baby through the glass. I have the strange feeling that I didn’t give birth at all, and long for the moment when I can hold my baby in my arms finally and feel like she’s really mine. I had no idea how long that would be.
To be continued…
List of COMPLETED Nursery Projects!
I realize that I probably should have posted a list of nursery projects to do before showing you the completed results, but I got so busy working on projects that I never got around to blogging about them. Oh well…I’ll start with some pics of the completed nursery first, then give you some close-ups and descriptions of the individual DIY crafts that I made (Pinterest…it’s a blessing and a curse).
The wall color is green, though it’s hard to tell in the pictures. I wanted lots of bright splashes of color instead of the typical pastels you see in most nurseries. My theme was pink, green, and owls – lots of owls. I found this fabric at Hobby Lobby that I ended up designing around. Mom made the curtains, bench cushions, and crib skirt that really give the room great impact. Here are the projects I added:
1. Fabric-covered lampshades – this is a super easy way to add color and pattern without having to sew. You can buy the lampshades at Hobby Lobby. You just peel the label off the shade, revealing the sticky side. Using the label as a pattern, cut the fabric then stick it to the shade. I used hot glue to seal the side seam, top and and bottom to the inside of the shade.
I used my inspiration fabric on this shade, and a bright pink gingham on the other with a green ribbon trim.
2. Felt owl mobile – I picked out all the felt colors at Hobby Lobby (I really should get some sort of endorsement fee) and used a Christmas ornament pattern I found on Pinterest. After I cut out all the pieces I glued the wings, beak, feathers, etc. onto the front owl shape, then whip-stitched the front and back together. It was super easy…I did the stitching in the doctor’s office while I waited through the dreaded 3 hour glucose test (I was borderline on the first test, so I had to go back and get my blood drawn 4 MORE TIMES. Thankfully it was negative that time around, but what a pain!)
I attached the owls to a wooden embroidery hoop with ribbon, and my wonderful husband mounted the whole thing from a hook he put in the ceiling.
3. Tree branch mural – I’d seen pictures of nurseries with lovely tree murals behind the crib, and I just had to have one! I looked for the decal murals, but found them to be awfully expensive. I also read that they don’t stick very well to textured walls. Ours our very textured. I didn’t want to spend big bucks on something that would just fall off the wall when the seasons changed (I deal with that enough in my classroom). So, with my mother-in-law’s encouragement, I decided to paint it myself. I chalked the basic outline of the branch on the the wall (I highly recommend using chalk, since it’s easy to rub off if you make a mistake, and was completely covered by the paint). I made different sized stencils for the leaves, and traced them with chalk as well. My sweet hubby helped me trace over everything with paint…we just used some leftover white glossy wall paint we had from touching up the trim. We ended up doing two coats, but I’m so happy with the results. It was just the subtle effect I wanted, at a fraction of the cost of a decal!
It’s really much prettier in person…the green of the wall is a really nice contrast to the soft white, which also stands out above the dark wood crib.
4.Ribbon frame – I had so many pretty hair ribbons given to me, and it seemed such a shame to just hide them away in a drawer, so I took this idea (also from Pinterest) and ran with it. I found the frame for 1/2 off at (where else) Hobby Lobby, and had Chris spray paint it a soft pink (he was such a trooper…it took about 4 coats in some seriously windy conditions, but it came out great!) Then I just hot glued ribbons to the back in even rows. Tah-dah! One of the easiest projects I did, and so pretty and functional!
5. Canvas art for about the changing table – I was pretty nervous to attempt this, but I just couldn’t find any owl art that I liked in the right colors. So I took a deep breath and decided to paint some myself. I made templates on cardstock first using a straight edge, oval stencils from my scrapbooking supplies, and a compass borrowed from the math teacher at school for the circles. Once I was happy with each design I copied it onto the canvasses in pencil. Then the hard part…filling in with actual paint! I didn’t make too many mistakes, and I used water-based acrylic so I was able to wipe off a goof pretty easily. After the paint was dry I went back and traced out each design with a black paint pen, which definitely made all the difference in making each piece look finished. I just love the results…and am pretty proud of my artistic ability too! (who knew?)
I love them all, but the sleeping owl is my favorite.
6. Fabric mounted in embroidery hoops – I wanted some more color on the walls, and found this idea (on Pinterest, where else) that I thought would look really good over the glider. I just bought a bunch of different sized wooded embroidery hoops (these are really cheap by the way, from about fifty cents to three dollars) and picked out some coordinating fabric. I used some of the owl fabric and gingham left over from the curtains, but added a bunch of other prints to make it more interesting. I cut the fabric to fit each hoop, then glued the excess down with my trusty hot glue gun. My marvelous husband helped me hang them in a random pattern on the wall. I think the effect is warm and homey, without looking too grandma’s attic, thanks to the bold prints I chose.
7. Baby quilt for the crib – after I finished the embroidery hoop art I still had lots of fabric left over. It seem a shame to waste it, so I thought, I know, I’ll make a quilt! No, I’ve never quilted anything before in my life. No, I haven’t even made a simple blanket. Yes, I’m insane. I just couldn’t get the idea out of my head, so I found a blog that gave me step-by-step directions and decided to just go for it. Cutting out the squares and piecing the top definitely took the longest amount of time, but once that was finished I was able to baste, quilt, and bind it all in a day (a very loooong day, but hey, that’s what Spring Break is for, right?) It’s far from perfect, but for my first attempt, by myself, with directions given in a blog, I’m pretty happy with the results. I can just picture Charlotte laying on this quilt for tummy time as a baby, then dragging it around with her as a toddler. I hope she loves it to pieces!
So there you have it…the nursery is complete! It looks much better in person, as I’ve said, so I hope you can all come pay us a visit to see it for yourself. I can’t wait to introduce Charlotte to all of you! In my next post I plan on showing you how I organized the nursery…we’ll see how long it stays this way, but I think it’s a good start anyway.
Accomplishment #10: Cabin getaway with Hubby
I’m a bit late posting this, since we went over my birthday weekend at the beginning of December, but I really want to write about the fantastic time we had. We stayed in a private cabin at the Big Cedar Lodge Resort in Branson, MO. The cabin was everything I’d wanted…rustic wood floors, log walls with wide chinking, stone wood-burning fireplace, huge back deck…it even had a gorgeously decorated Christmas tree, and lights outlining the entire outside!
This trip had a dual purpose – my birthday celebration (crossing the last item off my 30 at 30 list before I turned 31) and a mini-babymoon. Since we’d already done two big vacations this year, we decided that instead of taking a long trip somewhere before baby comes, we’d just do a quick weekend getaway. It was perfect. I highly recommend it to all of you expectant parents out there who can…taking just a few days away, driving a short distance, and staying in a beautiful place…the perfect celebration of baby coming and free time becoming less…well, free. Some of the highlights of this trip:
- fire in the fireplace
We had planned to take a wagon ride around the resort to admire their intricate light displays the first night we got there, but with rain pouring down and everything sopping wet, the ride was cancelled. I was a little disappointed, but our evening ended up being much better than riding around in a cold, wet wagon would have been. Thanks to my highly capable, eagle-scout husband, we had a fire blazing in our fireplace in no time. Nothing like cuddling on the couch in front of a roaring fire to make you feel all warm and toasty…inside and out!
- Putting together a puzzle
It was very chilly and damp the next day of our stay too, but fortunately we had come prepared for indoor amusement. In the morning we went Christmas shopping (though we ended up with more baby clothes than gifts…oh well, merry Christmas little one!). After we’d gotten sufficiently chilled and worn-out, we holed up in our cabin for the rest of the afternoon. We’d brought a Disney puzzle to do, which we spread out over the dining room table and spend the afternoon piecing together. I love a good jigsaw puzzle, and this one was not too big or too hard…it was full of familiar Disney characters which were easy to recognize and fit in place. I played my “show-tunes” mix (coincidentally full of songs like “Be Our Guest” and “Under the Sea”), a perfect accompaniment to the activity. We were able to finish it that day, which of course is important to me. I just wouldn’t have felt right about putting a half-done puzzle back in the box.
(yes, there’s that “completer drive” rearing its ugly head)
-Massage at the Carriage House Spa
This is the third time Chris and I have indulged in massages. Not everyone likes them, but I’ve found nothing better for relaxation and to smooth out all the tension I carry (not sure why I’m so tense…until I remember that I deal with hormonal 7th graders on a daily basis…oh yeah, that’s why I have knots the size of golf balls in my shoulder muscles). If you’ve never tried one I think you should…especially if you have stress in your life (and who doesn’t these days?)
Isn’t the building picturesque?
- Snowflakes falling as we left
Now, most of you know that I am not a fan of snow. After living through ten winters in the Colorado foothills I’ve seen enough of the white stuff to last a lifetime. However, there is something beautiful and magical about watching snow drift down around you in December…it just set the perfect tone for the end of my birthday celebration and the start of the Christmas season. Thankfully all it did was flurry for a bit…nothing stuck. Driving home from Branson with snow on the road would not have been a pleasant way to end our getaway! (You think Colorado roads are windy…Ozark roads could give them a run for their money. And there is no highway from NW Arkansas to Branson, so you have to take tiny back roads the whole way. It makes for quite the adventure, but not one I would enjoy with slick roads and white-out conditions).
Lesson learned from this trip? Sometimes a quick getaway for the weekend is just as special and memorable as a week in an exotic resort…and much easier to afford!
List of Changes
It’s been a little while. Okay, a long while. Fine, three months. “You have excuses, but I have my reasons” as the song goes. Most of the reasons I’ve neglected this blog have to do with the adjustments that came with the start of a new school year. I’d gotten so comfortable in my summer routine that fall hit me like a shock-wave, and took me longer than usual to find my footing. The switch seemed a bit more dramatic than usual because of all the changes involved. Here is a list of the many changes this school year brought with it.
1. A new principal
Our very excellent chief of operations at my school received a promotion at the end of last school year, and a new administrator started this fall. Our new principal is a woman, and she’s wonderful. She’s full of passion and great ideas and excitement and a fresh perspective. But as anyone knows, change is hard. Mrs. A’s administrative style is very much opposite to Dr. H’s leadership norms, and she has definitely “upset the apple cart” (in the best way possible) and all the teachers are scrambling a bit to get ourselves adjusted to her way of thinking and doing. The first few days of school were a bit more chaotic and stress-filled than usual, but of course it came out all right in the end. We’re still facing new hurdles and directional switched constantly, but hey, whatever doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, right? We wouldn’t want to be stuck in a rut. No danger of that now!
2. A new team member
For some reason the Social Studies position on our team is a bit like Defense Against the Dark Arts (for those of you who are not Potter fans, the professor who taught that course at Hogwarts never stayed more than a year). We’re on our third teacher in as many years. Mr. M is fresh out of college (JBU, so a point in his favor) and is definitely being thrown into the deep end. We’ve tried our best to get him up to speed, and he’s a fast learner (fortunately) but since we’re all a little off-balance these days it’s a bit like the blind leading the blind. He’s really doing a great job though, and it’s been a strange but fun twist to be the “voice of experience,” when I’m used to always being the youngest member of the team. It’s crazy, but doing the math leads me to the inevitable conclusion that this is actually my 10th year of teaching. How time has flown!
3. A new addition to the family
Nope, not just taking about the puppy (though she has brought her own set of challenges to my schedule). Everyone winked at us when we said we were getting a dog, commenting in an all-knowing way, “oh that’s the first step.” Sure enough. Baby Baran is officially on the way! Chris and I are expecting him or her to arrive somewhere around April 18th. It’s perfect timing really. I’m due just a week after our big state testing is over (all my teacher friends just shuddered) and, thanks to an earlier start to this school year, should be able to finish the last six weeks of school out on maternity leave, coasting gracefully into summer. For my mathematically minded readers who are counting back, yes, I did find out right around the beginning of school. The first day, actually. Hence my additional befuddlement and distraction at the start of the school year. This was also the main cause of my “dead air time” on this blog…I found it impossible to compose anything without referring to this monumental (ha!) life change. Chris and I agreed not to make it public knowledge or post it to facebook until after the first trimester was safely behind us, so I had to wait at least that long before writing about it. But as the twelve week milestone came and went, I still felt reluctant it pick up my pen (figuratively speaking of course). I felt like it had been too long. I didn’t know what to say. I was to exhausted and sick in the afternoons to do anything but lie on the couch and watch Buffy reruns and HGTV. But there’s no time like the present, and since I’m finally starting to feel better (knock on wood) I decided to tackle this task that I’ve put off for way too long. Most of you probably already know our big news, but for those who haven’t heard yet, I hope you didn’t mind reading about it here. Hey, it’s better than posting it directly to facebook, right? And now for the FAQs:
- yes, we are going to find out the baby’s gender, but I won’t be far enough along until right before Thanksgiving. Don’t worry, that will definitely go on facebook ASAP!
- No, we don’t have names picked out yet, though thanks to my years of teaching I have an extensive list of NO WAYs (I won’t post any, for fear of offending, but I definitely have had some bad experiences with students who will forever taint certain names)
- I haven’t decided yet if I will stay home with the baby or not. I’m leaning toward yes, but I don’t want to make the final decision just yet. Thankfully I have plenty of time to decide. Chris is super supportive either way, and I’m so thankful that I am able to make the decision and not be forced to go one way or the other.
- We haven’t started the nursery yet (waiting until we find out girl or boy) but we have definitely started cleaning out closets and shifting furniture around. We’re consolidating the office and guest room into one room…we’ll see how it goes. I’ll post pictures of course.
- No, I don’t have any belly pics yet. I’m at that awkward stage where my “normal” clothes don’t fit any more, but maternity still feels a bit like overkill. I look more like I’ve been hitting the Oreos to often than like I’m carrying a baby, but hopefully that will change soon and I’ll start to look pregnant instead of just like I’ve been going overboard at the all-you-can-eat buffet. There will be some pictures Monday however. Strangely enough, there are 5 of us at my school who are expecting this spring. One is due a month before me and one a month after, and the other three are due within a week of each other! Should be interesting to see who wins the final delivery race
. We’re taking the first “baby club” picture Monday, with monthly pics after that. Should be a fun way to document our “progress,” especially as each baby belly is replaced with a babe in arms!
I will try not to go so long before I post again. Now that the secret’s out, I think it will be easier for me to generate topics. Look for the upcoming posts: List of Baby Items I May or May Not Need, List of Names I Like But Chris Rejected (and vice versa), List of Foods I Can’t Seem to Stop Eating, and of course, List of Healthy Prenatal Habits I Should (but may not be) Doing
Accomplishment #28: Meet Elphie!
Crossing this item off my 30 at 30 list has definitely meant a big lifestyle change for us. Of course we knew getting a dog would mean added responsibility and certain restrictions to our freedom, and it certainly has had that effect. I must admit when it came right down to it, I was pretty nervous about assuming my position as “dog owner.” My family had dogs growing up, but feeding two huge outdoor dogs that had 30 acres to roam didn’t exactly prepare me to take care of a little house dog. Naturally I read every book I could find on the topic of dog care, dog adoption, and dog training, and watched multiple episodes of the Dog Whisperer, so by the middle of July I felt fairly prepared to take this step. Funny how the books make it seem so very easy…but I’m getting ahead of myself. First let me explain how we found the little addition to our family.
We’d talked about getting a dog this summer, so that I would be home with it for a few weeks to help it adjust and teach it the rules of the house. Unfortunately, what with vacations and birthdays and a wedding on our summer docket, we weren’t going to be able to start looking for a dog until close to the end of July. Not a whole lot of time, considering I start back at school the second week of August (this summer has been criminally shortened by snow make-up days and over eager administrators who decided to move up the first day of school). We didn’t want to get a dog until after Chris’s brother’s wedding, since we’d be gone practically that whole weekend, but I thought checking the newest listings on Petfinder wouldn’t hurt. How naive of me. As soon as I saw her picture and read her description I knew she was just what we were looking for. I saw the listing a week before the wedding. I eagerly showed it to Chris, who gracefully agreed to let me call the shelter and let them know I was interested, but that we couldn’t come see her until after the coming weekend. When I called the next morning however, I was told that if I was really interested in her I’d have to come see her that day, since she was scheduled to be part of a convoy going up to a shelter in Minnesota the day after! Talk about pressure! Chris and I hadn’t even looked at any dogs at all yet! I ended up dashing off an application that morning (a couple of my friends were very surprised to receive reference calls, asking whether they thought I would be a good pet owner) and going to Siloam Springs to see her that afternoon. She was cute as a button, very laid-back, and walked perfectly on a leash. I was in love, but I didn’t want to make any decisions before Chris met her. The shelter’s manager (who happened to be my former partner teacher’s son-in-law…gotta love small towns) graciously suggested that I come back in the morning and take her home with me for the day so my husband could meet her (Siloam is a 45 minute drive, and Chris didn’t feel it would be appropriate to take off work in order meet a potential pet). When I brought her home Chris agreed that she was exactly what we wanted…small, submissive, out of the puppy stage but still young…so when I took her back that afternoon I went ahead and signed the adoption papers. I couldn’t bring her home until she had been spayed, however, which worked out for the best, because we were able to schedule the procedure for the Monday after the wedding. I made yet another trip to Siloam, and brought her home for good!
We decided to name her Elphaba, after our favorite musical character (if you haven’t seen Wicked yet, you really should get on that) and call her Elphie for short. She’s a yorkie/dachshund mix, with the yorkie’s fur and the dachshund’s body. Her legs are longer than a typical dachshund’s but she still has the walk (as my friend Mysti says, she prances). She’s pretty mellow and very affectionate. She loves people but doesn’t seem too interested in other dogs (when we’re out on our walks she pretty much ignores any barking she hears). She’s also very quiet…she doesn’t really bark at all, though she does whine (more on that in a minute) and makes a horrible rasping, wheezing coughing noise that sounds like she’s about to hack up a lung, or possibly a hairball.
Let me just say that there are a few things about dog ownership the books don’t really prepare you for. Here’s a list of unexpected issues we’ve dealt with so far:
1. Not all dogs can be crate trained
All the books recommended crate training as the best and easiest method for housebreaking a dog. Since Elphie was a stray and we didn’t know if she’d been trained or not, we planned to play it safe and train her from scratch, using the crating method. Elphie detests her crate. When we put her inside, no matter how calm she is and how “calm-assertive” we are beforehand, she starts whining, yelping, pulling at the door with her teeth and digging at the floor. Of course the books also recommend taking several days to let the dog get used to the crate and make sure the dog will go in on its own, but that’s not really possible at 12:30am when the dog is destroying the laundry room and making so much noise we can’t possibly sleep. We resorted to putting her crate in the office, closing all the doors between us and her so that I couldn’t hear her whining anymore because it kept me awake (I always thought I’d have no problem letting my baby “cry it out” when necessary…now I have serious doubts). That only lasted a couple of days before we decided to let her sleep in our room on a blanket next to the bed. She doesn’t sleep on the bed with us…although I do recall waking up in the middle of the night and the blanket over my feet feeling suspiciously heavy.
2. Not all dogs will go the bathroom in the backyard
Elphie really only does her business when we walk her. I learned this the hard way. The first day we got her I took her out to our lovely, fenced-in backyard every hour or so, but the only thing she’d do was look look around and then lay down. When she had her first accident on the carpet about 10 minutes after a fruitless trip to the yard, I decided we’d try walking instead. Sure enough, no problems (except for when I failed to notice the signs that she wanted to go out, so she calmly squatted right in front of the backdoor. I learned my lesson). Of course we’ve been having a record breaking heat spell, so walking two or thee times in the middle of the day is pretty miserable, but at least I don’t have to clean up the carpet every few hours. What will happen during rainstorms or in the cold and snow of winter…well, we’ll cross that bridge when we come to it. The up-side is that we will be forced to get more exercise, so that’s good, right?
3. You conform to the dog’s timetable, not the other way around.
I guess I knew this one…but nothing brings it home like a restless dog waking you up at 5:45am during your summer vacation so that she can go for a mile and a half walk, after which she settles back into restful slumber. Of course you are too awake at that point to go back to bed. Our mornings are beginning much earlier these days, but I decided that’s all to the good, since I’ll have to be up that early in a couple weeks anyway. I have a feeling my husband, who will have to take over the morning walks once school starts, will have a more difficult time adjusting.
There will be many more additions to the List of Things I Never Knew About Owning a Dog in the near future I am sure. Until then, I’ll leave you with a couple of pictures that may explain why, despite the loss of free time and added inconvenience, I’m so very happy to now own a dog.
List of California Memories: Part 2
Yosemite! If you have never been to this first and most beautiful of all our national parks, you must add it to your bucket list immediately! You simply can’t understand how much beauty is packed into such a small space without experiencing it for yourself. Growing up in California, my family spent many a summer vacation camped underneath the magnificent granite domes that ring Yosemite Valley. I have an odd connection to the place, almost like it’s my personal park. I was so excited to be able to share this special place of mine with my husband. You may have heard that Yosemite had a very late winter this year, and because of all the run-off the water levels are at record highs. This made for some breathtaking views, and one death-defying adventure!
Unforgettable: Seeing water pour down the face of a granite cliff, wind causing the spray to billow and explain its apt name: Bridal Veil Falls.
Less memorable: Waiting for a good 10 minutes for someone to leave the parking lot in order to get a spot, then hike to the the falls only to be turned back by the force of the spray. Normally the spray is nothing more than a refreshing mist – now to get to the foot of the falls means passing through a drenching sheet of water! We contented ourselves with pictures taken from afar.
Unforgettable: Returning to the falls at dusk, when the parking lot was empty and the falls glowed softly against the darkening sky…it was a sight I will never forget.
Unforgettable: Hiking through Mariposa Grove, dwarfed by Giant Sequoias so enormous they seemed like alien trees, grown on another planet then teleported here for us to wonder at. Pictures just cannot do the trees justice…but I’ll describe them in more detail in my upcoming List of my Favorite Trees.
Less memorable: Realizing that when we set out to find the Faithful Couple (my favorite trees) we had somehow made a wrong turn and ending up back at the parking lot. After refreshing ourselves with crackers and caffeine, Chris sweetly gave in to my plea to try again. We did…adding another couple of miles to our already tired feet and legs. Thankfully we made it to the trees and then back in time to catch the next to last shuttle returning to where we parked at Wawona. That 5 mile hike back would have been a bit beyond our limits I think!
Unforgettable: Hiking to the top of Vernal Falls via the Mist Trial, thus accomplishing #7 on my list of 30 at 30. I’ve done this hike a couple times before…once when I was six or seven, and once when I was twenty-one. I remembered it being pretty strenuous, but well-worth the effort. I neglected to factor in the effect altitude and a few years would have on my endurance. The beginning of the trail is pretty much straight up…I had to stop more frequently than I’d like to admit…but we made it to the bridge and our first view of the falls.
This was when I felt my first quiver of uneasiness. I had never seen falls so full. The water literally thundered downward, sending a plume of water shooting upward and blowing over the path that we were going to take. We were determined, however, so we donned the ponchos we had purchased for $1.50 at the gift shop that morning and began the ascent. I don’t know what to compare it to. Trying to walk upstairs when there’s a fire hose at the top spraying down at you? Our ponchos were approximately as much help as a water gun would be in the middle of a forest fire. True, they kept the cameras dry, but there was no way to keep the hood from blowing off my head or water from seeping down the front of me. Add to this the challenge of walking up widely placed, roughly made granite steps that were also being drenched with water, so that a river ran down them as we climbed up them, and you can see why this became less a strenuous hike and more a death-defying endurance test. At one point I looked back at Chris and yelled over the water, “Are you sure you want to keep going?” He yelled back, “We’ve made it this far!”
We did make it to the top, a peaceful haven of sunshine where we were able to eat lunch and dry out. The only fly in the ointment (besides the scads of other hikers) was the annoying persistence of the squirrels. Emboldened by stupid tourists who ignored posted warnings and fed the little buggers, they were determined to come right up to us and snatch the food from our hands! Nothing really worked until I started barking at them. Chris shakes his head, but I’m convinced that it was a very effect way to scare them off. Of course after our rest, there was only one thing to do…hike back down. I don’t like to think about that experience. Suffice it to say we made it, legs shaking, back to level ground. We both felt the same sense of accomplishment that triathletes must…but without the desire to repeat the activity any time soon!
Unforgettable: Gazing at the magnificent monolith, El Capitan, from all different angles as we followed the road around it. We even came to some people with telescopes trained on the rock who were watching some climbers. They gracefully allowed me to look through the lens and watch the guy for a minute. We found out that there were two guys, and that they were at day 5 of a 10 day continuous ascent! Yes, they were literally “hanging out” on the rock, spending the night bolted to the cliff! I admire dedication to one’s sport, but that’s taking things a bit far!
Less memorable: Getting stuck in terrible traffic on the “El Cap” shuttle as it headed back into the valley. I’ve never seen so many cars just sitting there! It was by now after 6:00pm on Saturday, and I could only assume all of these people were planning on camping for the night. Where they thought they would go I have no idea…as far as we saw all the campgrounds were full. We finally got out, apologizing to the bus driver to regretfully said he had one more run to do, and walked back to the valley.
I haven’t even mentioned the food! We treated ourselves to dinner at the Ahwahnee Hotel, a five star restaurant in the middle of rustic splendor. We knew there was a dress code so we dressed up, but poor Chris had nothing to wear on his feet except flip-flops, since his hiking boots had been soaked in our early excursion on the Mist Trail. Thankfully the hostess overlooked this breach of protocol and seated us anyway.
The food was divine, of course, but for the most scenic vista I would have to cite our table the next night at the Mountain Room, the restaurant at Yosemite Lodge, where we had a spectacular view of Yosemite Falls. The perfect end to the perfect trip to my personal paradise.
List of California Memories: Part 1
If you’ve spent any time on Facebook recently you might have seen the couple hundred pictures my husband posted of our recent trip to California. I thought I’d devote the next couple of posts to describing some of the highlights of our trip. In order to offer a fair and balanced look at the vacation (and to avoid sounding too much like a travel brochure) I will also include some of the…well, low-lights.
Unforgettable: Dining at a fancy cafe right on the water in Fisherman’s Warf, gazing out over the harbor and watching the sun go down as we sampled the local produce and seafood.
Less memorable: Realizing once and for all that calamari does NOT agree with me, as I am violently sick our first night (sadly, I did not learn this lesson the first time, when the calamari I ate in celebration of my 29th birthday had a similar effect. I thought it was because we were in Branson MO, and the seafood wasn’t fresh. Perhaps not.)
Unforgettable: Watching the sea otters play in their ginormous tank at the Monterey Bay Aquarium. Also my close encounter with a giant octopus. It had spread its tentacles across the glass right in front of me, when suddenly it swam backwards and turned around, studying me with the same interest and intensity that I had just focused on it. The clear intelligence behind those black eyes was both creepy and mesmerizing. Did you know an octopus is thought to be just as intelligent as a dolphin? What it lacks in flips and chirps it makes up for in cold calculation. Fastinating.
Less memorable: Fighting the hoards of people surrounding the touch tanks and aquariums. It wasn’t terribly bad, but it was certainly crowded. And we were there on a Monday! My advice: if you’re planning on visiting the aquarium on Saturday, go early or don’t even bother.
Unforgettable: Driving the indescribably scenic 17 mile drive past Pebble Beach Golf Course, then down Highway 1 to Big Sur. Every vista was cut right from a postcard or travel brochure. Although the wind was freezing, the sun was out for most of the drive so it wasn’t too cold (I know it seems crazy to be cold in CA in June, but remember we were on the central coast, closer to Oregon than L.A., and the Pacific has none of the warmth that the Atlantic offers.) What the drive lacked in heat was made up in soaring cliffs, foamy waves beating against jagged rocks, sea gulls, sea lions, and even sea otters that we spotted at two secluded coves.
Less memorable: Realizing we had forgotten to bring sunscreen. Despite the sea cooled breeze and fog, we both managed to turn a bright shade of pink by the end of the day.
Unforgettable: Finding a picture-perfect vineyard, allowing myself to cross one more thing off the 30 at 30 list (okay, so it wasn’t in Napa valley, but it was still a vineyard in California, so I’m going to count it)
Less memorable: Stopping at a wine tasting room to sample some of the local fare, only to find it full of tipsy tourists who had just gotten off the “wine trolley” and were making the rounds. The experience confirmed the wisdom of our decision to change the location of the first part of our journey from Napa to Monterey (I think the coast was much more scenic also).
Less memorable: I’m going to reverse my next two comments so that I can describe them in chronological order. First, as I was driving our rental car from Monterey toward Yosemite (a full-sized sedan made by a certain American car company that is, apparently, less than reliable) it started flashing alarming messages across the digitized dash: SERVICE STABILITY CONTROL, ENGINE POWER IS REDUCED. Because we were in the middle of nowhere, I ignored the warnings until I could get to a service station. The car punished me by dying just as I was trying to pass a semi going up a hill (admittedly not the smartest driving decision I’ve ever made). Amid a chorus of honks and rude gestures from the other vehicles who were trying the pass the semi, I somehow managed to muscle the car over to the side of the road. Good news, there was a shoulder wide enough for me to park on. Bad news, we were parked along the edge of a huge reservoir, and there was nothing around us for miles. Thankfully, after we let the car sit for a while, it started up again. I nursed it to the nearest civilization (an In-n-Out in Merced…if we were going to be stranded, at least it would be near good food). After refreshing ourselves with burgers and shakes (and of course freshly made fries) Chris called the rental car company. They told us to sit tight and they’d bring us another car. We decided to wait at the nearest Walmart…also not the best decision, since it happened to be an old Division 1 in what was not the best part of town. Note to self: The next time you are stranded somewhere on the West Coast, pick a Target. Oh well, at least the people watching was interesting. A tow truck showed up hauling our new rental about 2 1/2 hours later.
Unforgettable: Cruising the rest of the way to Yosemite in a Mustang convertible! Feeling the wind in our hair, sniffing the pine scented air, taking in the breathtaking scenery, gliding effortlessly around those mountainous roads…well, let’s just say the wait at Walmart was well worth it.
Stay tuned for my next post: Yosemite!!
My Summer Schedule
“So what are you planning to do this summer?” is the question everyone poses to me this time of year, when school has finally ended and my classroom is cleaned up and closed off until August. I always feel like I should have a list of productive and worthy tasks at the ready to spout off, proving that I won’t be wasting my summer lying about eating bon-bons. Unable to produce such a list, my invariable response is “Whatever I want to.” Not the most courteous or even truthful of replies I suppose. In truth, I feel a bit guilty about having my summers free, especially now that I’m married and must watch my husband dutifully trek to the office every day while I laze about, drinking my coffee and watching the Today show. Of course the dear man insists that I should be as lazy as I want to be, but that would just make me feel even guiltier, frittering my whole summer away doing nothing. I’ve found that a healthy balance of productivity and frivolity is the best policy, and to ensure equal measures of both I’ve created a daily schedule. Call me crazy, but during the school year routine is my bread and butter, and without one I find myself floundering about like a fish out of water, not knowing what to do with myself. Of course my summer schedule is a bit different from my school year schedule. It looks something like this:
7:30am (or there abouts – whenever I hear Chris shut the water off from his shower): Crawl from beneath the covers and shuffle to the kitchen to put breakfast on the table and get Chris’s lunch ready. I know this sounds very Susie Homemaker of me, but my loving husband does the same for me during school when I have to be up first, so the least I can do is take care of it for him for the scant summer months.
8:00am – Kiss my hubby goodbye, then sit with my coffee cup and Bible and spend some time with God. During school my quiet times are often rushed, or, I’m ashamed to say, bumped off in favor of some more urgent task. This summer I’m determined, God help me, to give Him a good amount of time without distraction.
8:30am – Go to the gym for some kind of workout. I haven’t actually completed this task yet, but I blame it on a lingering sore throat (a parting gift from one of my dear students I’m sure) that I’m just now starting to get over.
9:30am – Do some sort of housework. Today I outdid myself by cleaning both bathrooms, including the tub/shower, removing everything from the kitchen counter to spray for ants and then wiping down all the surfaces, scrubbing the sink and stove top, and washing and drying several loads of laundry. Come to think of it, I don’t think I missed my workout after all. Of course now I’m so exhausted all I can do is sit here and type. Oh well, at least I’ve earned an afternoon nap.
11:00am – Eat a healthy snack. I’m still fighting this stupid sore throat, so today I just had an orange and some milk. Actually, that’s probably the perfect mid-morning snack, if I can just stick to it and keep my hands out of that bag of tortilla chips that’s calling my name from the pantry shelf.
11:30am – Reward myself for all the industriousness by reading a book, watching some HGTV show that I’ve recorded (what did I ever do before we had DVR?) or, if I’m feeling especially creative, updating my blog.
1:00pm – Eat a healthy lunch – probably just soup today, but normally a sandwich and some fruit, or maybe a pickle or two.
1:30pm – 6:00pm – This is where the schedule gets a bit loose. I have a few projects to work on (see my list of 30 at 30), so this would be the ideal time. I might do a bit of shopping, surf the internet for new recipes, or do some volunteer work (still haven’t gotten any leads on that one, so we’ll see if it actually happens). Here is also where I might be able to squeeze in that afternoon nap.
6:30pm – Get dinner ready, hopefully following a new recipe. I think I’ve only made 3 of the 12 that I’ve committed to (again, see the 30 at 30 list) so I need to get on the ball. Tonight I’m making a chicken pasta salad with balsamic dressing…I’ll let you know how it turns out!
6:45 or so – welcome my husband home, bring him his pipe and slippers, and mix up his favorite cocktail, all while decked out in my heels and pearls. Just kidding. I will kiss him enthusiastically and inlist his help to finish up cooking while we fill each other in on our respective days.
7:00pm-10:00pm – Unwind with hubby by watching some Big Bang Theory or Leverage (thank you Netflix!), reading, going for a walk around the neighborhood, or letting Chris instruct me on the finer points of Portal 2 (his favorite xbox game, the latest version of which requires two people for the cooperative play portion. I’ve even learned how to operate the complicated controller…you can’t say I never did anything for you sweetheart!
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10:30pm – to bed for a little more light reading, or maybe checking Facebook or my Twitter feeds (am I up on social media or what?!) Then off to dreamland…hopefully sooner than later, but that depends on how long of an afternoon nap I took.
So there you have it – the complete and comprehensive answer to my most FAQ. I hope that it meets with everyone’s approval. And if it doesn’t, well, it’s what I want to do.







































